My life is changing more and more each day.
Do I like it? Some days.
Can I do anything about it? Not at all.
The Angela you all grew up with is gone. She's never coming back.
Memories of high school and old friends pass through my mind daily and I wish I could have all of them back in my life, but we've all moved on.
I am uneasy with making new friends, because part of me doesn't want to make room for the new. It feels like I am a memory card in a PlayStation: I would have to delete an old file to add a new one.
I find it hard to be sociable. I used to love to sit and carry on conversations with people for hours on end...now the only people I do that with are Hope, Jeremy, and Michael. I feel like the only reason they listen to me is out of common courtesy sometimes. I don't think I could be my friend. (hahaha...)
Uncertainty is the biggest feeling in my life right now.
Music used to be my solace for when things got bad...it was what I turned to when I couldn't control anything else. Now it's the main cause of most of my stress.
I don't know what will come of 2010, but so far I am not pleased at all with what I'm working with.
[end melodramatic blog....NOW.]
1 comment:
There is obviously a lot to know about this. I think you made some good points in Features also.
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